All of us have long range goals such as building a business, finishing a degree, or getting a promotion. Sometimes long range plans come unexpectedly and are put upon us, like restoring health, getting through a crisis or a loss. The long range goal seems distant but according to the experts there is also need for smaller milestone goals so that the goal seems manageable.
What the experts don't tell you is that even with smaller milestones there will come a time, (just before the finish line) when setbacks happen, strength fails and we doubt the necessity to even finish. Sometimes we have tried to accomplish a goal 14 different ways and you don't have any idea what to try next. The thought of quitting is appalling but the thought of having to push ONE MORE TIME, to TRY ONE MORE TIME is even worse because their is no more strength, none.
The things that we envision, create, accomplish and build on our own with only slight resistance is great. We move along believing we are fully capable of accomplishing our goals and we have faith in the work of our own hands. Those little milestones that motivate us to keep going work. But as we get close to the mark, as we think we have it under control we realize the mountain might just be to high to climb.
I believe we are created to reach the end of ourselves. I believe that circumstances in our lives are orchestrated so that we have no more of our own strength left. Why? Because resistance builds muscle? Maybe, but I think that something more profound happens in these tests. We learn that we can't do it alone. We learn that our strength will never be enough. We learn that our skill and talent will only carry us so far and no farther. We are humbled, we cry out and in that submitted place where we are empty and weak we find personal growth. The great Sages teach that from humility comes wisdom. That the only way to truly learn is to understand that in the scheme of the universe, we know nothing. What we do and what we have been given is meant to bring goodness into the world.
The Creator of The Universe will renew our strength, our ingenuity, and even opens doors we couldn't see. All these challenges are on our path to remind us that we are not in charge, we are not untouchable or fully capable. We are dependent on each other and we are a part of something much greater than ourselves. What we DO, what we ACCOMPLISH is not as important as who we are and how we bring goodness and compassion into this world.
I started this project (which was supposed to be quick and part of the "building plan") but just as I was close to putting on the new stain, I injured my hand and wrist. At the same time a couple other challenges came up that I did not want to deal with and I felt blocked, tired and bewildered. So I took a break, humbled myself, read, meditated, pouted and soon I had the strength, the new vision and the ability to complete all the tasks. Even beyond that I was wiser, better connected to the universe and I had peace. May peace be with you as well.